I’m constantly looking for new ways to measure myself. I don’t mean this metaphorically- I actually get online and look at different charts, indices and calculators. I guess it goes back to my psychological need to “measure up” in some way.
Any way you look at it, I’m not progressing as rapidly as I need to in order to meet my original goal. If you recall, I was hoping to hit 147.5 by my birthday on October 30th.
I say “hoping,” because really, a desire without a plan is just a dream. Looking back at these last few weeks, I realize that I haven’t put together a solid plan for how I’m eating. Without the proper nutrition, exercise has less impact. Just take a look at the current plateau I’m in:
My trainer had a little sit down with me over the last couple of sessions. “How’s your eating?” Now, this question feels almost as personal as “How’s your love life?” but I answer him truthfully anyway.
“Horrible! Just horrible. This last week, my sister was visiting, and I ate terribly.”
At this point, my sensei wisely muses, “Your sister visiting is an external factor. If it’s not her visit, it’s going to be another external factor, or another. We have to get to the bottom of what’s going on inside. What’s going on internally? We need to figure out why you think you don’t deserve to be thinner, healthier or weigh less.”
*sigh* Isn’t that the crux of the issue? Author Pat Pearson
Since this is a long-standing issue, I don’t plan to resolve it in one blog. I’m going to be aware of it, and keep working through it.
One step to progressing is to change my goal date. I’m not giving up on my goal! I think that I need to be realistic instead of setting myself up for failure. Failing to meet the goal I had hoped to obtain is just another way of proving that “undeserving” voice right.
So, here’s a chart of my current progress. At the bottom of the chart you can see that I’ve changed my birthday goal, which is in 9 short weeks! Realistically, losing 15 pounds and 3 inches from each measurement is a challenging but do-able goal.
What you can’t see is that I am still committing to reaching 145 pounds. My goal date, however, needs to be pushed back a bit, possibly to the summer 2010. I need to consult with my personal coaches before I set the exact date. I’m still going to get that “Waikiki beach body!”
Thanks for staying on track with me. I look forward to reading your thoughts below!
were you a mathlete in highschool?
wow.
sidenote – wow. dude. you talk just like me. minus the dude. are we rubbing off of each other???? isn’t this the conversation we had tuesday 8/18? geesh.
ok, back to your blog – you d.e.s.e.r.v.e. to achieve all the plans you’ve set out for your self. 1: you reap what you sow. 2: you ask you should receive. 3: you excercise and eat healthy = better health. 4 – 49: persistence is the accelarator of all dreams. 50: you power mad woman! you can do it!